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The Loudest Prayer for Your Quietest Struggles

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A few days ago, you told me about your dreams, about how deeply and fiercely you long to finally cross that finish line. Your words might have been brief, but through your eyes, I could read the entire story. I can clearly see how hard you have fought, carrying the weight upon your shoulders, stumbling, and rising again like a man who refuses to surrender just to make it to this point. I know that the past few days have not been kind to you. You are going through an incredibly exhausting phase, where every step feels heavy and your surroundings might be clouded with tiring doubts. Your sky is gray, and I am fully aware of how much weight you are carrying all by yourself in silence. Yet, in those moments when you might feel fragile or not good enough, I look at you with a chest overflowing with immense pride. Yes, I am so incredibly proud of you. I am proud of your resilience, proud of the way you refuse to be defeated, and proud of your courage in facing this hardship with ...
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Savor and Interpret Your Life, and Happiness Will Find you, Always.

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Hi, Let me tell you how I came to realize that happiness is actually that easy. I am truly happy, so happy with my life that it feels as if the world is mine. In the midst of my journey, I overheard a conversation between two school kids riding a bicycle. One of them enthusiastically showed off his new trousers, while his friend simply replied, then what does that have to do with me? I could not help but smile hearing that, and I shared the incident with my best friend. Turns out, happiness is that easy, huh? my best friend said. I was taken aback for a moment. That is true, my mind agreed. I smiled not to laugh at his friend's indifference towards the new trousers, but simply because the situation was so absurd and funny. Just imagine, in the middle of an out-of-context conversation, your friend suddenly blurts that out. Isn't that funny? But deep down, I thought, he is just a little kid being happy over something new he owns. It was his overflowing gratitude that ...
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The Blurry Telescope and the Journey Home That Was Never Far

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I am no longer waiting until I am ready, I am simply choosing to be brave. Today, I had a conversation with a colleague, laughing at reality and realizing how fast time flies. Life has suddenly become much more serious. I am currently in my sixth semester, and it feels like just yesterday I walked in, yet now I am only one step away from graduating. He murmured softly, how unexpected it is that we have already reached this stage. I agreed completely. That feeling truly hit me the moment I opened my laptop and started drafting my final thesis for the very first time. We laughed, but that laughter gradually faded, turning into silence. Not an empty silence, but a quietness heavily laden with realization. We were both wrestling with our own minds. He was busy fighting a war with his thesis, and I was consumed by my own writing, trying to weave sentences to strengthen and convince myself that I could definitely do this. Often, I subconsciously punish myself by writing ten pages...
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The Epicenter of the Universe in a Tiny Grasp

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If earlier I shared the most beautiful sound that had ever graced my ears, now let me tell you about the most breathtaking sight my eyes have ever witnessed. We often look far up into the expanse of the night sky, marveling at how vast and mysterious the universe stretched above us truly is. We are so busy seeking beauty in stars that are millions of light-years away, that we overlook a simple truth: the most magnificent and expensive beauty is often hidden within the tiny moments breathing right in front of our eyes. It all began in the confined space of an elevator. My gaze accidentally fell upon a father carrying a whiteboard. Yet, it was not the board itself that paused my time, but rather what was etched upon its surface. In a world that moves so loudly, where everything is so easily erased, replaced, and forgotten like the unforgiving change of seasons, he chose to immortalize a piece of innocence. There was a child's drawing left entirely intact, untouche...
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If everything were perfect, we would forget how to make du'a.

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That is exactly how we should perceive the essence of this life. What meaning would there be if every desire materialized instantly, without shedding a single tear, without enduring the long nights spent in waiting? If this world had no flaws, we would never comprehend the profound cost of hope. Everything would become hollow and monotonous. We would lose the space for our souls to evolve, ignoring the truth that our spirit needs to experience thirst to truly appreciate a single drop of water. Imperfections, in truth, are Allah's way of saving us from our own arrogance. The wounds, the failures, and the dead ends we encounter are not curses, but rather invisible invitations from the Heavens. Allah intentionally leaves empty spaces within our grand plans so we realize that no matter how hard we try, humans are ultimately fragile beings incapable of walking entirely alone. It is through those very cracks that His light enters, compelling us to bow our heads and seek an et...
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"Abiku" is the most beautiful word I have ever heard in my entire life.

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"Abiku" is the most beautiful word I have ever heard in my entire life. The moment my ears caught that word being spoken, a sudden pause claimed the space around me. My heart stirred profoundly, as if something was knocking on its door so gently, yet so deeply. There was a different truth I understood in that very second; a resonance echoing far beyond the mere sound of a calling. The word seemed to possess a soul of its own—living and breathing, flowing with an unusual warmth. Within that simple arrangement of letters, I found the tangible form of tranquility and solace. A manifestation of pure love that I am unable to describe with the vocabulary of any language in this world. How could I not? Right before my eyes, I watched and listened as a child called out to his father repeatedly, addressing him as "Abiku". The voice was not loud, nor was it demanding, yet it was spoken with the absolute certainty that he was calling for the center of his peace. I ...
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If Allah planted the dream, He also planned the way.

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2022 was the heaviest year of my life; a time when I felt my life was coming to an end, as if I would never be able to stand again. In that very moment, the dreams I had arranged so meticulously were simply buried. Because, for a while, I gave up. Even though I had arranged them so neatly, I forgot that I am merely human. I forgot that things will not always unfold the way I want them to; moreover, I forgot that I once doubted my Lord regarding all my desires that I demanded to go exactly as I wished. Besides that, everything shattered and fell apart—not because I did not deserve it, but, as I later realized, because Allah was preventing me from reaching that dream. Because the dream I had constructed would have actually brought harm into my life. And I also realized that God has been protecting me and even saving me. As time went by, I realized that a dream is not just one singular thing. Slowly, other dreams began to grow again, even though they kept changing. There was a...
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