If Allah planted the dream, He also planned the way.


2022 was the heaviest year of my life; a time when I felt my life was coming to an end, as if I would never be able to stand again. In that very moment, the dreams I had arranged so meticulously were simply buried. Because, for a while, I gave up.

Even though I had arranged them so neatly, I forgot that I am merely human. I forgot that things will not always unfold the way I want them to; moreover, I forgot that I once doubted my Lord regarding all my desires that I demanded to go exactly as I wished.

Besides that, everything shattered and fell apart—not because I did not deserve it, but, as I later realized, because Allah was preventing me from reaching that dream. Because the dream I had constructed would have actually brought harm into my life. And I also realized that God has been protecting me and even saving me.

As time went by, I realized that a dream is not just one singular thing. Slowly, other dreams began to grow again, even though they kept changing. There was a time I dreamed of becoming an academic who could impart my knowledge to others, becoming a doctor who serves as an intermediary for someone's healing, becoming an entrepreneur capable of building Muslimah clothing stores, and also becoming a skilled writer.

Until finally, Allah opened a path for me toward a dream I had never written in my diary; one I had never even whispered in my prayers during every prostration.

If only you knew that I found my dream again when God first opened the path toward it. So, I did not even know what my dream was yet, but God had already paved the way for me. My Lord rearranged my path and rebuilt my plans—not according to what I desired, but according to what Allah had decreed. And I know that it is far better than my own assumptions as a human.

There are many dreams I had penned down that I never got the chance to visit, but I let them go. And again, not because I wanted to, but because I realized once more that not everything must always go the way we want it to. Allah is the All-Knowing Lord; perhaps Allah was preventing a disaster that might have been waiting for us ahead, and therefore, Allah diverted our path to a different road so we would be spared from it.

And we must also realize that letting go of our dreams does not always mean we have lost; rather, it might be the very thing that paves the way for us to reach another dream—one that is far greater, and perhaps completely beyond the expectations of a human enveloped in sorrow.

Sometimes, humans dissolve their thoughts into things beyond their control. Other times, humans underestimate what they desire, unaware that such things would not simply cross their minds without His (Allah's) Power.

That is why, today, I never worry about my dreams anymore, because whatever they maybe, Allah will surely open the way for me toward them.

The same goes for you. Believe that whatever happens in our lives is never a coincidence. Rather, it is Allah's way of giving a warning as well as a lesson to us, who sometimes—or perhaps entirely—forget that Allah is present with all His power.

To those of you who have not yet found your dreams, I know you are trying, and I hope you never stop doing so. I also know you might often question it; it is just that questioning is not enough without making the effort. Believe in the efforts that have brought you to where you are today.

Allah will never plant a dream without opening the way for us, or perhaps it is the other way around: Allah will open the way for us, so that we may then find our dream.

Look at those neatly arranged books; that is how Allah arranges my life.

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